What are you doing? … I thought you were a photographer? These questions have come up allot over the past year since publishing my first anthology. Even though it has been a scary process and I thought I was putting myself out there, I realized that I am still hiding myself, my gifts and my talents out of Fear … What will “they” think?, What will happen if I take this step and tell my story? … will “they” still like me ?? These are just a few of the fears that have come up and as a result have kept me from moving forward. I realize that playing “Small” just isn’t working anymore. If I am going to make an impact and help others I need to get out of the shadow.
My favorite quote by Anais Nin
I believe is exactly where I am at. I feel I cannot do the good in the world I have been called to do if I continue to hide. So here is a bit of my story and why I am stepping into the new roles as Speaker, Author, and Teacher … And Yes I am still a Photographer!
At the age of 18, I was a single Mom, living on welfare in low-income housing with no education or direction. I had no Self-Worth and struggled with depression. My one-year-old boy and I were in a horrific car accident that almost took his life. He spent time in a coma and on life support. After months of being in the hospital, I took him home and it became very clear that he was now a very different little boy with extremely high needs. Our lives were changed forever.
The guilt, shame, and self-hatred I felt for myself was overwhelming. Isolated and alone I turned to drugs and alcohol as a way to escape. It only took a few short years for my life to spiral out of control and into a very dark place. As this sweet innocent little boy started to grow and needed allot of my attention, I began to think how he would be affected by the lifestyle and abuse he witnessed his Mom experiencing. So 15 years ago I chose to make a change by entering into sobriety. The 12 step program taught me to live one day at a time. It taught me to forgive myself and be present. It also taught me that if I trusted in a power greater than myself I would experience freedom. These promises came quickly in the forms of simplicity and a feeling of peace inside. I also began the journey to love myself.
Soooo back to that photography question I get asked so often …
I have always had a passion for photography and after a few years exploring my new found sobriety and a few failed business attempts in the field of natural health I started a photography business. Shortly after I started I was presented with the opportunity to travel abroad as a Photographer with a Women’s Empowerment Community. This is where the seeds of future possibilities were planted. I wanted to Speak, Inspire and Help other Women achieve the kind of freedom I was able to achieve… but it would take many years … 8 to be exact to step into that role. I am grateful for the time it took. and as a result, I have spent the years healing on a very deep soul level exploring several spiritual paths and religious practices….. including some pretty “out there” ones! I have studied and used many types of holistic mind and body health modalities to heal myself. Most of my favorite teachings are based around Emotional Intelligence, Philosophers and self-help gurus such as Louis Hay, Brene Brown and Wayne Dyer. I am intrigued by human nature and what makes people tick. I have learned in the past 15 years since entering sobriety that everything we receive and do not receive in life is attached to our Self-Worth and as a result of this I am passionate about spreading the message of Self-Love.
Yes, I am still a photographer but I am also stepping into new roles that are apart of my Souls Purpose. I am here to help Women experience freedom through Self-Love, help ignite their passions and learn to say YES to themselves.
~ “The past is over. The future is Yours to create”~
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